T0m@k0's Life

have been coughing the whole morning..
until like your whole lung is going to come out…
damn… i tot sick has come to the closing ceremony has it has decided to leave me alone for good.

but maybe the sickness know i’m busy no leave for myself
so it decided to stay and accompany me for a while.
but now all i want is it to leave me alone.
leave me alone and i’ll be more productive and effective 😉

was reading some blogs online to kill time in office and i come accross this post on drawing line

i guessed relationship is difficult and complicated sometimes…
you can like many at a time
but you are only allowed to love one at a time

but what happened if you are in love with two at the same time?
then you are in the love triangle.
so what?
and at the end maybe everybody in the triangle will get hurt.

so relationship is difficult and complicated.
but i do not agreed to the action of a gal to use the kindness of the guy who have feelings towards her.
friendship is a treasure of life
not to use each other.

maybe i did the same thing last time
using others good feelings towards myself
to accompany me when i’m lonely?
kanasai…

so… my appologies to those which i might hurt them..
and hope that they could get a better person who understand them better 😉

i’ve been on vegetarian for like around 10 years and this year will mark my 11th year as a vegetarian…

so… this post i wanna express about is…
what’s my experience as a vegetarian.

there is a group of people when they know that you are vegetarian…
they don’t respect you.. and they look down on you..
BC you for lunch .. most probably that they are all carniovor eaters.
and some even is evil enough to say you sin too much that you have to be a vegetarian…
yeah… vegetarian sin… and equal to nothing…
that’s the bad things i noticed accidentally.

sad to know that… but
i guessed i’m just too kind to forgive them…
not forgeting to caci them on my blog.

i also got comment from others like…
dun ask me to eat vegetarian…
if you ask me to eat vegetarian…
i’ll rather die…
reli? i guessed the carnivoreness too muched in their blood.

and some really like act very surprised to know that you are actually a vegetarian..
cos i’m low profile vegetarian…
not letting everybody know that…
just those very close friends knows…

some even like always forget i’m a vegetarian…
keep on talking about meat..
but i don’t care…
regardless how tasty you told me the meat is…
i don’t take it…

it’s great to be a vegetarian…
but you need to be careful when choosing what to eat
not necessary vegetarian food is healty
cos there are a lot of mock meat and stuff which are oily and results to health problem if too much is being consumed..

have not been updating my blog lately cos i’m busy doing individual tax computation for SXXXl… hundrend over tax computation to be completed within short period of time.
at times i feel like myself drowning.
at times i feel like myself sinking.
but..
i ask myself if this is just a small challenge for me
and there are some even the bigger one in front.
if myself cant survive the small one.
how would i survive in the future.

need to swim hard.
i have all the support that i can get
i need to swim harder
even i can’t swim i also need to find my way out..
to swim through
to get through everything
to pass my probation soonest possible.

pray for me and i’ll get through 😉

what does it take to be a good boss??

discovered that my staff did an error on the tax return
which requires a help from the senior management to reset the Form as there is an error.

i was not angry with staff.
cos i guess it’s my problem not communicating with them well enough.
so i guessed i should take the blame.

so i think i should be more ‘cheong hei’
careful in doing things.
and not to take things forgranted …

emo a new word learn from trevor.
i guess it should be emotional gua..

mood is not good this few days.
need more time
need more energy
need to be more calm.

need god’s help
need his assistance
to be brave
to be strong
to go through the challenge

to be organised.
to speed up
to destress
to be quite

not to release my temper.
not to get angry easily
not to raise temper to others
not to feel uneasy about things happening around myself

pray for me…
pray for the best for myself
pray that things will go through soon 🙂